Monday, July 25, 2005

Nerves

Sometimes you step on someone's (invisible to you) raw nerve, without meaning to, without even understanding it was there, and you get a pretty strong reaction. But you can't put the smoke back in the cigarette, can you.

I seem to be having a bit of a hard time recently, on too many different fronts at once. Here are a few of them:

I have a most valued employee, who looks burnt out and about to quit on me. Its too bad, I love her for herself, aside from the major and almost irreplaceable contribution she makes. And I don't quite know what to do. But I have to do something. I asked too much of her and she stepped up to a plate that was maybe too big and too soon for her. But I really didn't have any choice. Well, I have to do something, once I figure out what it might be. I just can't lose her.

I belong to a board of directors of an organization, and suddenly we have deep and nasty politics going on, and I'm not sure why. I've surely taken some major body blows on the matter, even though I am not sure that I am more than an incidental target. I'm just too sunny a personality in some ways, I always assume the best of everybody and am so shocked when people actually turn out to have malicious motives. Or get violent when I inadvertently step on a nerve. Because of my big mouth. And one of my colleagues clearly does not have the best motives, I think it might go beyond me having said something stupid. I wish I knew which one, and what I could do to make them a friend again.

A discussion board I belong to has taken a nasty turn. I'm not one of the players in the flamewar, though I've taken some collateral damage, but it pisses me off no end, I really don't know why people act this way. I really don't know why people act that way.

And then I privately asked what seemed to me a pretty innocent question of someone I admire, and got very publically tarred and feathered and hung out to dry, and quite the angry lynch mob assembled.

I dunno, maybe I should just go back to writing poetry for myself, and stop trying to participate in the world.

Then I remember Charles. And Idris.

What they taught me, is, you actually can save people, if you take the time to listen, and have the patience to let them find their own way. And then they teach you so much. Idris was the wisest man I ever met. Charles was probably the strongest. Both, in their own ways, really did not fit into this world, and had a lot of trouble.

Once I understood that they were survivors, who would somehow live no matter what I did, I was able to turn a few keys, undo or cut through a few Gordian knots with them.

Everyone, in their horrible misdirected and mis-spent life, will probably save at least one other person at some point, even inadvertently. But for me, it was a drug, and I wanted it and I still want more. And I think I've done more good than harm in my life, though surely I've done both. Thats what my dad told me to do, and Pops, I've done my best, whilst trying to do things, not be a spectator.

I am famous, in my industry, for insisting that we talk about love. Because we are in human services, in family services, it is fundamental, its the elephant in the room. And I for one am not willing to leave it nameless and invisible. Mostly the system regards it as a fault, because we all love inappropriately, stupidly, dangerously. But it is also what makes us what we are, and gives us so much of our strength. And we all do it, we all love, every misbegotten bastard one of us. Compassion is in seeing that, thats what compassion is, I think.

I think the biggest reason I have had some success in life, is that I'm not scared. No, I am very scared, I am and have been scared all my life. But I don't let it take me. I don't let it shape me. I don't let it become me. Fear, is I think, the worst thing in the world, and leads to do the worst things we do. I won't let it. I will remember love, and love, and remember with love.

No fear, I will face it all, and not serve my fears, only let them serve me. Fear is my energy, not to be denied, but not to be my master. I will not have it.

Well this has gone completely off the rails.

1 Comments:

Blogger mikejones5314 said...

Hot Stock For Your Review!!



+++++++++++Current Profile+++++++++++

Faceprint Global Solutions (FCPG)

Current Price $0.15

A company with hot new identity solution products

and licenses with over 40 current governmental and

non-governmental contracts in negotiations.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++



FCPG is now offering the world's leading encryption software to IBM's North American clients.



Will It Still Go Higher?

Does It Sound New and Exciting To You?

Please Review Exactly What this Company Does.



BREAKING NEWS!!



Faceprint Global Solutions (FCPG) is pleased to announce that its European partner, Keyvelop, has teamed up with IBM's Partner World Industry Networks to deliver customer software requirement solutions for the international healthcare industry.

With FCPG owning the exclusive North American rights to distribute the worlds leading encryption and transmission software developed by Keyvelop, FCPG is poised to capture large volumes of sales generated by customers currently using IBM's software in the healthcare and other industries.

With traceability and security now deemed a serious business priority, companies are increasingly focused on employing procedures and controls designed to ensure the authenticity, integrity and confidentiality of electronic records.

\"This is a very positive move for FCPG and for Keyvelop,\" said FCPG CEO Pierre Cote. \"We are very happy about the decision to go with IBM. This is a continuation of the progress made by everyone associated with FCPG and its partners.\"

Buell Duncan, IBM's general manager of ISV & Developer Relations commented, \"Collaborating with Keyvelop will ensure that we develop open solutions that are easy to maintain and cost effective for our customers in the healthcare and life sciences industry.\"

Among other things, this new software technology which is currently being used by a number of European healthcare companies, is used to send any file, regardless of format or size. Encryption keys, evidence of transmission integrity with fingerprint calculation, time-stamping of all actions and status record updating, pre-checking sender and receiver identities, validating file opening dates are part of Keyvelop features.

About FacePrint Global Solutions, Inc.

FCPG operates a business, which develops and delivers a variety of technology solutions, including biometric software applications on smart cards and other support mediums (apometric solutions). FCPG's products provide biometric solutions for identity authentication and a host of smart card- and biometrics-related hardware peripherals and software applications. Apometrix, FCPG's wholly-owned subsidiary, combines on-card or in-chip multi-application management solutions with best-of-breed 'in-card matching' biometrics. Keyvelop's secure digital envelope solution and Apometrix's on-card biometrics work together to produce the winning combination in the fields of security, traceability and identity management.

Conclusion:



The examples above show the Awesome, Earning Potential of little known Companies That Explode onto Investor's Radar Screens. This stock will not be a Secret for long. Then You May Feel the Desire to Act Right Now! And Please Watch This One Trade!

GO FCPG!



All statements made are our express opinion only and should be treated as such. We may own, take position and sell any securities mentioned at any time. Any statements that express or involve discussions with respect to predictions, goals, expectations, beliefs, plans, projections, objectives, assumptions or future events or performance are not statements of historical fact and may be \"forward looking statements.\" Forward looking statements are based on expectations, estimates and projections at the time the statements are made that involve a number of risks and uncertainties which could cause actual results or events to differ materially from those presently anticipated. This profile is in no way affiliated with the featured company. We were compensated one thousand dollars from third party (IR Marketing) to distribute this report. Forward looking statements in this action may be identified through the use of words such as: \"projects\", \"foresee\", \"expects\". in compliance with Section 17(b), we disclose the holding of FGS shares prior to the publication of this report. Be aware of an inherent conflict of interest resulting from such holdings due to our intent to profit from the liquidation of these shares. Shares may be sold at any time, even after positive statements have been made regarding the above company. Since we own shares, there is an inherent conflict of interest in our statements and opinions. Readers of this publication are cautioned not to place undue reliance on forward-looking statements, which are based on certain assumptions and expectations involving various risks and uncertainties that could cause results to differ materially from those set forth in the forward- looking statements. This is not solicitation to buy or sell stocks, this text is for informational purpose only and you should seek professional advice from registered financial advisor before you do anything related with buying or selling stocks, penny stocks are very high risk and you can lose your entire investment.

10:49 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home